I know it's been a long time....but I decided to come back and say hello.
I'd be lying if I didn't admit that writing this blog feels oddly strange to me. It's like I've been gone way too long, cobwebs have accumulated in the corners of my blog, and I'm not familiar with the language of what it is I'm supposed to be talking about on here anymore. I'm not sure where to begin, other than with a warm greeting, and the admission that I've missed the community here, and hope that everyone is doing well.
Over the past month and a half, I took time off from the weight loss blog because frankly, I just wasn't doing anything about my weight (other than adding to it) and with stress of the end of the semester and the hectic craze of the holidays I knew my attitude about it wasn't getting better - only worse. Tired of making excuses and writing about failures, I dropped out of sight and decided to finish out the year not thinking about the dreaded subject of weight loss. The problem is, I have found that even when you give yourself a free pass, you never truly stop thinking about what it is that you are doing, how it relates to your weight, and how your body, mind, and soul are going to pay for it later.
So, here we are the first day of the New Year, 2012. If the Mayans are right, this is my last shot to get my shit together.
Yes, I'm back on the writing kick but I surely know it isn't enough to simply write about losing weight. If I have any shot in hell of making 2012 a year of positive change, I need to do so much more. This year isn't about making resolutions. Those never seem to work for me. It is, however, about finding the right solutions to what I consider to be the most problematic issue I have ever had. I need to figure out exactly how I am going to address my issues and how I am going to manage them. This will take time. No, it's not rocket science, but I have been here so many times, I need to really be sure I am willing to make the hardest sacrifices this time around. No pussy-footing around. At age 40, I don't know how many more times I have it in me to ride this God forsaken merry-go-round.
I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season and is welcoming the New Year with open arms, as I am trying to do. I had a fabulous Christmas and birthday and am ready for the year ahead. The next few weeks will be crucial in my plan for success, as I begin student teaching Jan 17 and that will bring a whole other set of challenges that I need to meet head-on.
Pardon the profanity, but a little bit of how I am feeling is what the cartoon below is all about. Here's to a much more triumphant 2013 picture!!!
(Note: Couldn't get the cartoon to insert correctly - ugh!!!)