It's funny, but even for how long I have been unemployed, I still love the feeling that Friday eludes - a sense of the the week being put behind you and having two whole days to do as you please. Well, in Weightloss Land that's not exactly true. There is no more "do as you please" - especially if "doing as you please" has normally involved things such as indulging in donuts, ice cream and pizza, as it has with me.
I am trying very hard to define my new "norm" which isn't the easiest thing to do. I will be very happy when I don't relate those aforementioned ass-expanding food items as something that I would really like to eat on a regular basis. And while I haven't really had wild cravings for them, and don't consider myself struggling in any way, I know that one day those cravings will hit me like a ton of bricks, and I will want to dive head first into a Dunkin' Donuts counter, mouth wide open. I haven't quite figured out how I will handle that feeling just yet, when it does arrive. I do know that I will fight it with all I've got, kicking and screaming the whole powder-sugar covered way.
Friday now also represents something else for me. It is the day I have chosen for my weigh-ins. I remember when I was a Weight Watchers member in NYC and I weighed in on a Monday. What a disaster that was. It was like walking to the gallows every Monday evening, wondering what my weekend indulgences did this time. I like Friday in that it will show me my progress for the week and hopefully hold me accountable for my actions on the weekend. If I do good and show a loss, the hope is that my success will motivate me to stay on course and continue the behaviors of the past week to further propel my weight loss. If I have a gain (gasp!), the hope is that I realize that I need to adjust my behaviors so the gain does not go from a small snowball to an avalanche over the course of the next week. It's happened - I speak from total experience here knowing that I have let things like a 2 lb gain turn into 10lbs and beyond. My thought now is that I can take the weekend to regroup, reassess, and get back into action - accept the gain and do what I need to do in order to reverse it. No beating myself up, just get back on track.
Overall, I have to say this week was a good week. My only real indulgences were 2 glasses of wine, but the eating part has been dare I say it - easy???? I don't want to jinx myself but hey, it's gotta be said that I feel like I am finally getting my head screwed on straight about this whole eating thing. Last evening Josh and I went to the grocery store to load up on more fruits and veggies. I am pretty sure our produce bills are going to put us in the freaking poorhouse.
Speaking of produce - I picked up this pineapple yesterday - it appears it may have been gipped of it's top "plume" just a bit (what is the technical term for the top of the part of pineapple, anyway? The leaves???). I thought it was sort of cute looking, so I bought it:
|Pineapple with a bad haircut|
Oh, and regarding the home gym - it's not quite all there yet (we can't agree on the positioning of the equipment) but it's getting there....I will post a pic as soon as it is complete. The problem we have now is where to install the TV and also which direction to place the treadmill so that it doesn't look like it's just sitting in the middle of the room when it's folded up (even folded it is a big momma). I like it up against the wall but then when you're on it, you are just staring at a blank wall (which I am Ok with since I listen to my iPod anyway). But Josh wants it facing the TV which does make more sense, but it really screws with the set up of the room. Oh well, I am sure we'll figure it out. For now, I can at least get to the elliptical and the bike (now if we could only find the cord to the bike we'd be golden). Ah, chaos at it's finest.
Soooooo - back to the real subject at hand - My weigh in!!!! I am proud to say I lost 3 lbs this week (and this is even with the old bitch Aunt Flo in town) - I'm down to 230.75 lbs. I'll take it! I know moving this ample arse will also make a huge difference so here's hoping for another great week!
Stay cool, my friends!